huh

phew,this whole day i just stick my bum on my chair and sit infront of the pc just to finish my science assignment. huh. yeaaay ! it's done, no need to worry anymore kan? huh. well, i think i did it heartlessly compared to last year's assignment. Last year's was a lot more better , i think. oh, whatever. asalkan siap kan ? haha :D 

okay ,science done, 7 subjects more to go. hadoyai =.='

back again

For start, salam.

Yeah, i know it's such a loooong time since the last post that i updated. annnd i seriously don't know why i'm feeling so excited to start posting again. so, let's get started. hmm, it's already about three four weeks of holiday rite now. piles of homework on my desks are screaming and calling out for me but i still don't know why until now i'm not interested to do it or even just to look at it.haha, habislah, other people dah halfway doing their homework and maybe ada yang dah settle dah pun . haiiyoo. 

Skype :)

A few hours ago, i was skyping with a cousin of mine. 

Shazwanie amiera, I miss you a lot.

Skype lagi eh, anytime?

I saw this :)

Again, I miss you!

Maybe we'll not going to meet each other this holiday and I'm sorry for that.

But, I want you to know that,

I reaaaalllyyy miss you .

Love ya, twin <3.

First Crush

First love at first sight.

Everybody has experienced it before rite?

So am I.

Suddenly I feel the urge to write about my first love.

Haha. It sounds funny lah. 

I'm not going to write it specifically actually.

Just feeling like writing about some of it.

I had my first crush a few years ago, and yeah I was in my primary school at that time. 

The first time I saw him, it made my life turn different. 

Never in my life I feel like that. His cute face and his laughter (LOL. This is funny.)
 made me smile everytime I think about him.

Just a year after the first time I met him, he shifted to another school.

My days were more dull when he was not around. 

People could see me smiling and laughing all the time but they couldn't see how miserable I am inside.

Seconds, minutes, days and soon years, I grew tired of hoping to meet him again.

I learned to live without thinking about him-it was painful. 

Memories about him faded and I started to have a crush on someone else.

Till one day, I found him. ( From my sister. Haha )

I was quite nervous and anxious when my sister told me about him. 

I was worry and i couldn't stop fidgeting, thinking about him.

My heart were broken into pieces and I thought I almost cried ( lucky I didn't )

when I saw a picture of him, with his girlfriend beside him.

I stopped hoping for him after that. 

I'm sure I've never crossed his mind, maybe he doesn't even remember about me or who I am.

Yeah, there are a lot more pretty, fashionable girls out there.

Who am I to him?

I told my best friends about it, and even showed he and his girlfriend's picture to my best friends.

As I expected, they said they suited together and that I have to move on.

So I listened to their advise, move on and forget about him.

Yes, that's the only way to make me feel better.

Maybe I do have some feel of regret and unsatisfied, but whatever it is, I hope he's happy with his girlfriend.

And to you, Mr.... ,

Goodbye.

hoyeah

i'm home.

satisfaction

sometimes, i just feel like i wanna drag myself into an accident.

i'll be lying on the hospital's bed, coma and fall into a deep sleep .

i wouldn't have to worry what's happening around me. 

i wouldn't have to think about the problems that have been haunting me.

i wouldn't have to think about those people who had made my life miserable.

i wouldn't have to fake a smile that would hid the sorrow inside me.

i wouldn't have to lie people that i'm okay whereas i'm not.

i wouldn't have to think or care of anything else.

just fall into a deep sleep.

i'm addicted

feeling like i wanna plead my ayah to bring me to the cinema and

watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa, AGAIN.

he's mine !

this post is specially dedicated to SHAZWANIE AMIERA AHMAD,

yes, i know our taste are the same.

kite kan twins, kan?

ape aku suka kau pon suka,

but for Prince Marcus,

no no no he's mine, okay,

dah. tak ad tak ad. 

dah book die dulu dah :P

HE'S MINE.

-fullstop-

terima kaseh.

p/s : this is a reply for your recent post. 

gaga :D

written sincerely by NUR AINA AQILAH ZULKIFLI

oh mannn~~

so my father brought me to the imigration to renew my passport just now.

and guess what? org tu kate " tak boleh la, nombor dah habes "

oh mann~~ i was sweating like hell and he easily said like that.

siot betol . time nk ambik gamba passport pon tga frustrated + sweating , so the picture turns out to be like my baby sister's face yg tga melalak . yup, my face was that bad .

munching popcorns

Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa
This movie is watched by two creatures, Dhiyana Mahawangsa(my sister) and Qila Marcus(me) on the 13th March 2011, Monday, 6:00 PM. Thank you.

After about 3 months keeping the eagerness in me to munch popcorns while watching movie in the cinema, yesterday, i persuaded my ayah to bring me and sis to the movies. I was like " oh please please please 3x " and finally he said " okay ". I wasn't actually that eager to watch this movie, but as the movie starts, it really had caught my attention. ( dengan sound effects dia lagi ). 

This movie was really unexpectedly cool and interesting. Ignore what people will say and i'll still say this movie is cool like yeah. Seriously, i think this movie is really worth watching. Furthermore, for me it's better for Malaysian film producers to produce this kind of movie more. Because i think there's too much of light elements in Malaysian movies nowadays. kan? how about try something out of the box rite? 

Btw, while watching the movie my sis and i sempat admiring the heroes in this film. Ngee~

the conclusion is, i love this movie and that's it.

p/s : my sister gila dengan merong,

i gila dengan prince marcus, so sama2 gila :D haha.

sweet like yeah

http://new.music.yahoo.com/blogs/ourcountry/94250/owl-citys-adam-young-sends-swoon-worthy-love-message-to-taylor-swift/

haih ~ sweet gilaa kot .

sick sick sick

yes, my situation is kinda like this rite now.

argh~ i hate to be sick.

but it still not gonna prevent me from sticking infront of my pc.

hesh. i don't usually get sick like this.

it's okay.

it's one of the ways to get rid of my sins rite?

but it's making me lazier to do my homework.

urgh~

and yeah, lupe pulak,

thanks to my honourable teachers,

i brought back home a pile of precious homework to do.

ouh~~ yeah.

i think i'll do it tomorrow, or i'll get like this in a minute if i do it now.

wonderful life

life can be wonderful rite.

though sometimes it doesn't.

just forget about what happened to me this morning.

i don't really care about those people anymore.

memBOSANkan hidup, kan?

anyway, this afternoon, 

i played badminton with my ayah and it was ages 

since the last time i did that with him.

tgh syok maen, then dtg plk my 5 year old younger sister (yg reti pegang racket je) terkedek2

pleading she wanna join us.

hesh menyebok saja.

jadi net je la kot.

haha, pity her.

after that pujuk die and ajk die maen rollerblade with me.

well, sort of lah. die tak reti maen lagi.

so she just ran beside me as i play the rollerblade.

my sister tga sakit perot kot . haha . :D

this one, agak gedik i shall say.

seeing my sister laughing, i was so envious of her.
can't i just be like that? playing all the time and do anything i want 

without caring what others might think.

agree?

phew

sorry if my previous post scared you guys off.

i was just expressing my feelings here.

seriously, i've never wrote anything so wild like that in this blog before this.

so, that's mean i'm TOTALLY mad with 'those people' who can't

stop telling other people what they don't really know.

tu lah Malay people. suke sgt mengumpat.

even it doesn't involve the person they were telling to. 

penatlah. 

hesh. diorang memang tak boleh stop ke?

who they think they are?

i was just going to start doing my precious homework and

when my friend told me about what 'those people' had done,

i lost my mood that instant.

S**T betol lah.

i hate cursing people like this but, THEY made me do like this.

nak je mention name diorang satu2 dalam blog ni.

but i have to think, what if people do like that to me rite?

huh. 

dah la tu .

i'm tired and sick of it.

that's it

that's it.

i don't think its worth for me being nice to people

when people do the opposite thing to me. 

it's sad right?

i hate to dissatisfy people or make people hate me.

 it will make me feel like i'm some sort of a dangerous stranger

that no one would like to be near to.

stop it. 

PLEASE.

i just can't take it anymore.

if you guys are not satisfy with me and my friends or perhaps

JEALOUS of us, 

go ahead, but please don't start telling other people what YOU DON'T KNOW.

or maybe start telling those FUCKING LIARS that you thought will make people hate us. 
that's it, i'm not gonna tolerate with you guys anymore.

and, most important,

i DON'T care HOW OLD YOU ARE, if you don't respect me,

the same thing will happen to you.

ENOUGH.

Results

80% for Science

94% for Maths

88% for English

86% for BM

80% for P.A.I

81% for History

83% for KH

70% for Geography

Yes, i know they're not good enough. But i don't expect at all for these results. I think Allah has given me more than what i want, doesn't He? Especially for my Maths. I don't expect that i would get an A for it. Coz i was half awake and half asleep when i was doing my Maths test. Ngee~. And i thought i sucks a lot in this test , but Alhamdulillah. i got 7 As and 1 B. All praise to Allah. Every time the teachers called out my name and hand out my results, ouh~ i think i'm gonna faint on that instant. Especially for my Science and Maths results. My face was kinda like this, i guess.

or perhaps

or maybe

okay, enough. 

though i think my face was kinda like those pictures above, i couraged myself to take my test papers.

and, what i got, 

oh yeah~

except for my Geography. humph~.

i'm still grateful for it because i was expecting i'll get C for it.

Wait. But i guess, i don't think i still remember what i had memorised.

oh gosh.

hey hey .

And this happened when my first monthly test was over ;

The moment my Japanese test ended which was my last subject for the last day of the first montly test,

i can't resist to grab the novel that i borrowed my best friend. Credits to Aina Nabilah. :)

Others were buzy arranging their desks, i just sat on my chair and start reading the novel.

Har har. That's what Aina Aqilah normally do after her exam.
if i was to be in my home, surely i'll be sitting infront of the lappy and wouldn't wanna get off from it. 

hello

HELLO :)

Finally, i'm back home again.

It's over

Finally, the first monthly test had just over.

And now i just have to wait for the results.

Well i'm really putting high hopes on myself for this first monthly test.

Hurm~ lama gile tak update kn ?

How i wish i can bring lappy to school.

There's too many things that had happen for this whole month.

Sedih, kene lecture, happy, excited, nervous, macam2 ad.

About yang kene lecture tu, mls la nk cerita.

Just some misunderstanding.

Tapi i am still not quite satisfied because tak tau orang da tau the truth ke tak.

But things are getting better right now.

Huh~ da la mase tu a week before exam.

Anyway, i forgive all the people that had misunderstood or the people that had made them

misunderstand.

This is life in STF. Happy, kene marah ngn cikgu or seniors, kene jaki, 

it's a common thing in there.

Alhamdulillah i had my friends that were always been there when i needed them .

And Alhamdulillah again because i could answer the first monthly test peacefully .

So right now, 

i just need to turn around and leave those people yang tak penat2 

menyusahkan orang . what i have to do is, 

just go with the flow, babe.

p/s : hopefully i will get high marks for my exam :)

titanic

"love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime

and never let go till we're gone"

-my heart will go on-

one of my favourite lyrics in this song.

tomorrow night ad movie titanic kt channel 5 ( singapore ).

wanna watch it like hell!
da la it's one of mmy favourite movies. though ending die sedih.

but i love it.

anyway, babes and dude GOODBYE.

again.

"love isn't finding a perfect person. it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

i'm leaving.

maybe this will be my last post for this holiday :)

gonna leave my home, my family, my room, 

senang cerita,

gonna leave the outside world.

just got the news from my friends, 

that kitorang kene balek before 5 o'clock.

oh my~

i think my face was kinda like that just now.

haha ~

gonna have my first test two weeks more.

woohoo~  a bit nervous about it.

REALLY praying that i'll get straight As for my coming test.

InsyaAllah.

anyway, gonna leave my home a few hours later,

so i'm saying

but just for this week okay.

so again i'm saying

good bye :)

i'm feeling enchanted , babe.

phew~ finally managed to finish my homework :)

dah2. stop talking about homework.

yeah. watched this movie yesterday night.

i don't know why lah. but everytime about three or two days before i'll be back in STF, mesti nk tgok movie yg happy ending cm nie. one way for me to cheer up myself, by watching this kind of movies :)

oh~ i'm feeling enchanted rite now~ haha :)

anyway, it's already Sunday rite now.

a few hours later, i'll be back in my 'LOVELY' and 'ALL TIME FAVOURITE' school. huh.

+.+

That's how you know

Giselle: 

How does she know you love her? 

How does she know she's yours? 

Man: 

How does she know that you love her? 

Giselle:

How do you show her you love her? 

Both: 

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her? 

How does she know that you love her? 

How do you show her you love her? 

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her? 

Giselle:

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted 

You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say... 

"How do I know he loves me?" 

(How does she know that you love her? 

How do you show her you love her?) 

"How do I know he's mine?" 

(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?) 

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind? 

Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy! 

He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday 

That's how you know, that's how you know! 

He's your love... 

Man: 

You've got to show her you need her 

Don't treat her like a mind reader 

Each day do something to need her 

To believe you love her 

Giselle:

Everybody wants to live happily ever after 

Everybody wants to know their true love is true... 

How do you know he loves you? 

(How does she know that you love her? 

How do you show her you need her?) 

How do you know he's yours? 

(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close? 

Dedicate a song with words in 

Just for you? Ohhh!

All:

He'll find his own way to tell you 

With the little things he'll do 

That's how you know 

That's how you know! 

Giselle:

He's your love 

He's your love... 

That's how you know 

(la la la la la la la la) 

He loves you 

(la la la la la la la la) 

That's how you know 

(la la la la la la la la) 

It's true

(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color

Just so he can match your eyes

Rent a private picnic

By the fires glow-oohh!

All:

His heart will be yours forever 

Something everyday will show 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know 

(That's how you know) 

That's how you know! 

Giselle:

He's your love... 

Man: 

That's how she knows that you love her 

That's how you show her you love her 

Giselle:

That's how you know...

That's how you know... 

He's your love...

Hopes

I don't like 

hope very much.

In fact, I hate it. 

It hooks you fast and

kills you hard.

It's bad news.

The worst.

It's a sharp sticks

and cherry bombs.

When hope shows up,

it's only a matter 

of time

until someone

gets hurt.

Yes, i do hate hopes.

But still,

dreams are my favourite.

True Loves Kiss

oh~ i do dream of true love's kiss :)

homework :)

YEAH!
homework b'jln.

:)

L.A.Z.Y. and M.A.L.A.S.

I don't know what's wrong with me sampai boleh jadi malas cm ni .

Hadoih +.+ 

Homework still berlambak gilaa, and yet, still not touched. 

Huh . Feeling like I WANNA BE A SLEEPING BEAUTY. Can someone call the witch and cast the spell on me? Just can't help it lah.

 Boleh tak ?

Before holiday, dh plan nk start doing my homework straight away,

pastu delay. Plan buat hri Isnin pulak, then my heart says,' Hey, just chill and have some fun first, okay ?' So tangguh lagi hri Selasa. Nk stalk blog org lah pulak. Wednesday, nk tgok korean drama lah. dah lama tak tgok, kn. Smpi la ke mlm and to the midnight, tgok Ella Enchanted, (credits to my sister who lent me her lappy).

ini cerita best sgt2. and the actress is one of my fav.

funny + sweet . 

yeah, for me who love fairy tales and will always do.

and after tgok movie Ella Enchanted ni, my eyelids are getting heavy,, so, ape lagi, zzz..

And sampai la hri ni, my cousin came. Lagi la tak jadi nk buat homework yg menimbun tu. you'll never know how me and her will be.

 bile dah gossip tak reti nk berhenti.

and that's us yang gila2 .

sooo crazy till our hairs are like those scary and freaky witches.

mine especially.

haha. i love her a lot :)

less than three, <3.

anyway, baru set my alarm clock. wanna wake up early today(sbb da 1 pagi da ni.) harap2 bole la. insyaallah.

and tomorrow semua homework MESTI SIAP.

hurgh . da tak tau lagi nk buat cm ne da ni.

my laziness level is going way too high rite now.

okay, the owl needs to get some rest .

(ad ke? merapu je.)

so. nite2.

or shall i say morning?

Colour Guards, my life

Maybe ramai yang tak tahu pasal Colour Guards ni,

but for those who their school ade marching band, for sure diorang tau lah kan.

Colour Guards, it's a part of band.

Mase band tga marching smartly and playing their instruments,

Colour Guards will play their instruments too, which are, flags or rifles or maybe dancing.

Macam ni lah.

hehe.

nampak tak yang tga pegang flag tu? yes, that's them.

and, i'm one of them.

tapi bukan band yang ni lah. haha.

Colour Guards STF, that's me.

without cg maybe my life in STF would be full of boredom ! 

maybe, memang sometimes balek dorm lambat sbb practise habes lambat. and then kene pergi mufaz(surau) lagi, after that. 

 but at least, i have something to do dekat STF tu. besides studying. last year, igt lagi mase ad comp. 

habes je skola, tros tukar baju and practice kat astaka. 

mase dlm three or five days before the comp lagi lah. 

pnat gilaaa mcm ape. and my skin pon dpt sunburn +.+

sedeh gilaa!! dapat sunburn. but lastly, dpt masok comp smpi world.

okay, ni baru betol2 marching band STF.

okay,, yg kt depan semua tu bandgirls yg smart,

and kt blkg tu baru Colour Guards.

Actually this is last year's picture, time sportsday.

Anyway, the thing i miss the most about last year in Colour Guards is practising with F5.

they are one of those who have made me tough and stay as a Colour Guards. Tpi not just in Colour Guards but also in STF. sbb klu kt STF mmg kene tough.

maybe ad yang tanye, 'tak penat ke?' 

or maybe, 'baik kau masok bende lain.'

But for me, bile lagi nk merasa bende ni semua kn?

Besides, I ALREADY LOVE IT, okay?

Dulu mase primary school, aku slalu masuk dance performance klu ad annual school concert. 

So, last year mase masok STF, ad seniors yg promote Colour Guards. And ad jugak promote Band.

Mase tu actually nak masok band, but then, bile fikir2 balik, aku minat dancing, 

so, better masok Colour Guards. And, now i'm one of them :)

Although there were times bile ad something happen yg mmbuatkn aku nk quit Colour Guards, tapi bile fikir pasal last year, and those things i've gone through last year, memang sayang gile klu nk tgglkn cm tu je .

My mommy is one of the obstacles i need to go through in being a Colour Guards.

Die bukannye tak kasi but tak menggalakkan je. Maybe die tak nak the same thing happen like last year. Last    year, mase awal taon, klu balek je slalu nanges sbb CG (hurgh i'm a crybaby, i admit.) Tpi after a while, aku dah okay and i started to love it damn much. 

But maybe skrg mommy dh okay. 

Alhamdulillah my exam results pon okay, so my mommy dah tak kisah sangat lah KOT.

Despite menghalang or maybe disagree of me being a Colour Guards, my mommy 

ni lah yg selalu give support to me when i was a crybaby (dulu).

Thanks, mommy .

AND also, my ayah, family, best friends and those who were there for me.

Thanks a lot YOU ALL !

Anyway, being a Colour Guard had thought me being a tough girl in STF and i hope it always will. 

For all my teammates,

I love you all :)

saranghae :)