huh

phew,this whole day i just stick my bum on my chair and sit infront of the pc just to finish my science assignment. huh. yeaaay ! it's done, no need to worry anymore kan? huh. well, i think i did it heartlessly compared to last year's assignment. Last year's was a lot more better , i think. oh, whatever. asalkan siap kan ? haha :D 

okay ,science done, 7 subjects more to go. hadoyai =.='

back again

For start, salam.

Yeah, i know it's such a loooong time since the last post that i updated. annnd i seriously don't know why i'm feeling so excited to start posting again. so, let's get started. hmm, it's already about three four weeks of holiday rite now. piles of homework on my desks are screaming and calling out for me but i still don't know why until now i'm not interested to do it or even just to look at it.haha, habislah, other people dah halfway doing their homework and maybe ada yang dah settle dah pun . haiiyoo. 

Skype :)

A few hours ago, i was skyping with a cousin of mine. 

Shazwanie amiera, I miss you a lot.

Skype lagi eh, anytime?

I saw this :)

Again, I miss you!

Maybe we'll not going to meet each other this holiday and I'm sorry for that.

But, I want you to know that,

I reaaaalllyyy miss you .

Love ya, twin <3.

First Crush

First love at first sight.

Everybody has experienced it before rite?

So am I.

Suddenly I feel the urge to write about my first love.

Haha. It sounds funny lah. 

I'm not going to write it specifically actually.

Just feeling like writing about some of it.

I had my first crush a few years ago, and yeah I was in my primary school at that time. 

The first time I saw him, it made my life turn different. 

Never in my life I feel like that. His cute face and his laughter (LOL. This is funny.)
 made me smile everytime I think about him.

Just a year after the first time I met him, he shifted to another school.

My days were more dull when he was not around. 

People could see me smiling and laughing all the time but they couldn't see how miserable I am inside.

Seconds, minutes, days and soon years, I grew tired of hoping to meet him again.

I learned to live without thinking about him-it was painful. 

Memories about him faded and I started to have a crush on someone else.

Till one day, I found him. ( From my sister. Haha )

I was quite nervous and anxious when my sister told me about him. 

I was worry and i couldn't stop fidgeting, thinking about him.

My heart were broken into pieces and I thought I almost cried ( lucky I didn't )

when I saw a picture of him, with his girlfriend beside him.

I stopped hoping for him after that. 

I'm sure I've never crossed his mind, maybe he doesn't even remember about me or who I am.

Yeah, there are a lot more pretty, fashionable girls out there.

Who am I to him?

I told my best friends about it, and even showed he and his girlfriend's picture to my best friends.

As I expected, they said they suited together and that I have to move on.

So I listened to their advise, move on and forget about him.

Yes, that's the only way to make me feel better.

Maybe I do have some feel of regret and unsatisfied, but whatever it is, I hope he's happy with his girlfriend.

And to you, Mr.... ,

Goodbye.

hoyeah

i'm home.

satisfaction

sometimes, i just feel like i wanna drag myself into an accident.

i'll be lying on the hospital's bed, coma and fall into a deep sleep .

i wouldn't have to worry what's happening around me. 

i wouldn't have to think about the problems that have been haunting me.

i wouldn't have to think about those people who had made my life miserable.

i wouldn't have to fake a smile that would hid the sorrow inside me.

i wouldn't have to lie people that i'm okay whereas i'm not.

i wouldn't have to think or care of anything else.

just fall into a deep sleep.

i'm addicted

feeling like i wanna plead my ayah to bring me to the cinema and

watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa, AGAIN.